If I were........

If I were a man~
I have a girlfriend~
I won't do this kind of things~
like my boyfriend do to me~
ignore me as if I am not exist~
I have to phone him myself~
He is not active at all~
He thought he know me better~
but there is still things he needs to keep up~
be with me~
if he doesn't want to lose me~
he better keep it up ~
because sooner or later~
I will have a job~
I won't have time for him~
He can't blame me for it ~
he wants his space~
I can understand that~
but he also have to have time to put into this relationship~
otherwise why he tells me the sweet words~
so he can keep me~
He thought he already have me~
so he could wait until the sun is down~
I don't know ~
should I keep on waiting?
I hate him sometimes~
why can't he be thinking about me sometimes~
Is this really he wanted this way~
He really hurt me .....
when he said he will come to see me in the end of June~
right now we haven't meet each other at all~
Is he going to wait until time pass away?
I don't want to waste my time.
I want someone better.
Someone has time for me~
instead of job~
anyway
I hate him~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
why can he live better than me~
sometimes I wish I could have a job~
my own place, my good simple life style~
sometimes come to visit my parents.
I don't want a wood person besides me ~
last time we met........
I find out there is something bad happened~
he doesn't want to see me~
he doesn't want to meet me~
if I were him.....
I would say the real feelings in my heart~
I won't waste my girlfriend's time~
I want my girlfriend to be happy.
I hate you........
Why can't you make sometimes for me~
is that hard?
Am I not special ?
Am I just a wood?
I just want to ignore him
this month.
no way.
I won't send anything~
it is too hard and tired to do so.
sorry if I disappear~
because you disappear before me~
I hope to forget you.....
Forget you....
treat you as a stranger......
that is what I want to do
I should learn from you....
you are the best teacher.....
for me.....
treat me as non existent...
from now on ~
I want to live my life~
until you find me.`
if there is someone better ~
I will know that person~
because you are too smart and good looking for me~
I want to take lightly to you.`
From now on you are just a boyfriend when you need me~
you find me~
Nope I won't find you ~
I care too much about you~
see ya ~
this Sheila is dead~
New Sheila is alive~
I won't take any closer look towards you ~
because it is too late....
good bye.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!